Maisa Aisa Kyoon Hoon !

Wonder those times in Lower School when we used to open books with Alphabets to see D- Doctor, P- Police and the pedagogical community spurring (or blurring) our dreams with all those pre-conceived ways of growing. Thanks to the similar South Indian parental dreams,the operating system of my dreams also booted up with just two options 1) Biology 2) Maths .But never being a back bencher until Graduation, I was good at both of them.But was it the spark that I wanted to stir-up, now I retrospect. Always, my career-graph train stopped at various junctions , the biggest of them was Astronomy and the Second being a Felon ala Hollywood way. Then drifted to music after looking at similar singers like me scorching people on TV and they getting responses from the dogs outside my apartment. Then looking at the poor and needy outside, it drifted to Social Service, followed by a faint hope in trying a hand at modelling and I'm sure, tomorrow its gonna be something else.. But sitting for hours trying to write lines of computer languages.. Where did this crawl into ? ?
Nevertheless to say, I still am crawling for doing those and really feel so cribbed .

The shells around me keep changing getting with it a different flavour of life...But there are just some things which keep their indispensable presence amidst this alterations : Music , Writing...
I still remember those lambasts from my teacher for whom I was a "COUNTRY BUMPKIN" with a crass accent. But avid reading and writing lateron got more applauses from all. The Pumpkin Turned Bumpkin proved tasty for many finally. But, if I want to have myself associated to good literature, writing a book is one way to bare it all. And being a suspenso-phile ( Hope Oxford adds this in its next release) , I have got base line ready. Edification is upto me..
From a bathroom singer to a less-scary singer outside, I have a long way and just as other professionals of the fraternity, it was not easy.
Will I stride in here too... ??

But................................................................................................................
In the book of life every page has two sides: we human beings fill the upper side with our plans, hopes and wishes, but providence writes on the other side, and what it ordains is seldom our goal. -- Nisami

Wishing Myself The Luck

Whatz Up ? ?

Things seem to be jeopardizing in many ways here with me. I feel a very negative influence on me which has actually made me look gloomy these days. If there was an interview and I were asked "Do you have regrets, times when you felt you were Low ?", I'd love to say I had very few but is it Truly that ? , I 'd be just Hypocritic enough to say that.

Is there an eclipse above me that it has become Dark or Is there an invisible shell slowly building around me which I helplessly see but ignore to repent aint scrub it hitherto ! . I see a dip in my Sense of Humour, Sense of Thought, Sense of Sociability,Spontaneity which has acutally made a "Take for Granted", "Terky-Jerky" image.Thought I would end this session by going on with my folks today but the fizzle with which it happened just made me Irate. A needle is a needle nomatter it is in a haystack or pricking to some one's neck. But it has just added to the ongoing B-A-D crap here.

Much more than this was the thought - fight I underwent yesterday when I saw a Pigeon being run over by the car in front of me. Some Samaritan picked it up and placed it at some corner of the road and left. Me, a self-proclaimed Vegan and Pro-animal sympathiser was rushing to office with respect to some issues which though were one more piece of Holy Shit to me, were project Fate Deciders for my Top Brass. I wished to go back and just do some first aid to the bird and leave it free but what stopped me ? One of the biggest Regrets I'm gonna have. My eyes just searched when I was coming by the same route today but could not find the bird and I just cannot imagine about the status of the bird, Its better I don't !! Coz I stand no Right here. There were thoughts reeling now... and just as I wanted to chill out from all this... Well , not just the usual way this time. May b a cockeyed option for me was A VISIT TO THE TEMPLE.Hope No Negatives here atleast....

Coz I've got 3 days to waste ahead of me