Fully Reeeeeccchhaaaargggggeed

Tuesdays share a lot of -ve affinity in the family here. But for me , its just another day to do something if I DO. But this day really found its way ahead away from the other 6. What did I do? Simply I just LISTENED : To the story of myself, the story of my victory, my loss, my pain, my gain (? ? ? - I only gotta fill those), story of my dreams .In a way, I just felt I just wanted it after having been through other grinds. Just read a msg the day b4 :- "Take the hand stretched b4 u for it might stop you from falling .And, the hand will not go away". I shunned out hands and was shunned by ...... . Wonder Y didn't found their way ? Hav I become unsensitive or Stable on a positive note? Gosh!! That medicine is already working getting me bak to self.Lots more to be done. And temples, can have a piece of that cake. Head felt a lil un-lumbered. Lucid !!! . Paradoxically, I did not forget things lined up. Maybe I've not prioritized 'em earlier and now they found their place to the pain of some one. But Colin Powell quot "If you are going to achieve excellence in big things, you develop the habit in little matters. Excellence is not an exception, it is a prevailing attitude"-- I am lazy and sceptic in PREVAILING. Knowing the solution was never the problem. Putting it on was !! "Who looks outside dreams, who looks inside awakens".
And the best thing to do is to realize it whenever I awaken. For someone lyk me, to awaken everyday !!
I lyked the way I drove the day yesterday, barring a few data fudgings, I did not waste MY time.To prevent myself from getting back to Normal nd repent, I better do it today tooo...

HOLDING THINGS, HOLDING PEOPLE are coetanous but built on something which I missed all this time HOLDING YOURSELF !!!

Repatriation

Why did i prefer to have an early morning blog rather than a walk ? To get rid of all the mental conundrums that have been rending inside and become Healthy. And the solution for all of them is just one straight answer.. ME... Wonder if Alexander has truly stuck to his "I came I saw I conquered" ! - If I bump into him I would ask how many times ? and then I turn back with his answer without giving him a chance to say "Now the question passes! " . I forgot (something which has just been ingrained with constant practice) the reason why was I out here, things what I wished to achieve and inhabited just lyk a totterer looking for support around. And hmmm... I got some initially but that sweet little motivator seems to be irritated and frustrated with me as the calendar rolled by. Came new year, and just as others It too dawned on me that this is the time for Resolutions : (For Definitions in my context dont refer the dictionary). No sooner I thought of it, than again one more thought took the better of the former ... Will I lyk Alexander "I see I make I conquer ? " , And then just lyk any other typical Indian narrative, I stare at the past which gives ample examples of my lack of will, courage, zeal , confusion.










So this time my new year resolutions are a not something regular but.........................................

1. To be my self- motivator.(Something which can help when I fly away from home)
2. To prioritize people and things.I hated Selfish ppl but seeing them get-ahead made me think.
3. To turn all those defeats into victories' and for this my second point should help me.
4. To motivate myself everyday lest I forget all the above three.

A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALL.