Truly,Madly,Deeply...

Sounds like I am one of those inexpertised cosmo whoz come prepared with all his baggaged anti-diluvian emotional arsenal on a DATE and just turn it OFF for her. Why would any soul commit a gaffe and pillory himself to a zilch in the social sphere. Long since I blogged and no such trinkets to come down this time. These two weeks has seen a lot of my unsabbatical "racing thoughts" went untapped : the mental sluice just could not be closed. It was a different incarnation altogether. It was just so different from the way I am now :solitary, restive, vulnerable.And the reason which I tried to figure out with "I was greedy of more from life" being a smithereen of it. I thought I just morphed my changed self with what a couple of people told "my original past self" : Obliging things are the best way to be loved (more and more) :-) . Was just reading a book on ancient civilizations with the author lambasting all the various finds of the hypocritic and narrow minded eclectics, an instance of Cognoscenti Vs. Intelligentsia in harsh words. Really made me plausible about all these stuff. I drifted myself when he was planning about flying to Mars or Venus in the pretext of filling this chasm in me. Then something got me out of this fancied fog : REALITY BITES. Made me wonder what suddenly made me so fraught :was anyone the cause or does its seminal pointer pricked me instead. The answer I found it yesterday in one of the mails by Swami Paramananda about oneself: "The more you are get into things, the more you learn, the more you face,more you fail". Just as the turmoil inside a bamboo during drilling and chopping before becoming a mirroring itself as a beautiful flute lest a log of carrying a corpse, I presume innocently that this is needed. But Can and Will I do it ? And Should I ?? . Once I used to expect : infantile though which the my mirror thinks of the person on the other side. But when the slate is clean, anythings scribbled on it is stuff reckoned. Sometimes it helps :my current pursuit of getting back to my old hobby :Meeting people with the foggest idea of what lies in both of our association.
There were lot of holidays here in India for the past 2 weeeks but my city thanked me for having been a non-contributor to the pollution during this time.But my fishes have something else to curse about, I have been pretty reckless towards G n J for reasons self-oblivious.Were parting buddies the cause ?? But I have already changed myself from the times when I moved out of my house an year ago to stay away. And thanks for that. Though not as late as I found my country's "Jantaa" on its 56th Republic at the groceries market May b I am still here to look at such things instead of seeing the Greener and Developed Pastures on the Atlas. The traffic jam exactly in front of the flag hoisting ceremony made me somehow feel patriotic though.

The palmist who saw my hand (whose hand inturn I saw and took my revenge :-) by predicting ) says I think a helluva lot. But he says I gonna have hair on my head for quite some time. Any takers atleast now !!!

Trip the light fantastic Toe

This wednesday evening snides my last week's for the number of pages which go down in my life's own blog. Two same days of the week but asunder in my lifestyle : Style I gave to my Life. And we had been Romans (true to the cliche) primped for the occasion. My white shirt glowing in the dark just smugly put me in the spotlight, though no passes passed by.Cooly settling by and the music was just addictive enuf to get that rollick starting....and then it was time for making it more interesting by including some inputs. Then came the hookah with its mild peach spirit and just bowled us.A couple of stares for our place and our noise did make some heads turn but....itz all in the place.A couple of things and then it was time for ...."Ek Main Aur Ek Tu Hain,.... Aur Havaa Mein Jaaadoooo Hein " bluffing us all the way to the flooor inviting us with "Come to meee... Bhool Jaaye Saaraa Jahaaan,Come to me...... Hum Banaaye Apni Jahaan" . And there were pushes, pulls but nothing is offensive on the floor but sensuous and less offensively sensual.

But "There is just one thing I gonna say about tonight :WOW " - Not Anonymous :-)

Disocciate

"Monsoon rain or Summer heat, You are the reason why I breathe.Tell me dear what is sweet ?? Is that you or your heart that beats !! " ... Truely good to see suchthings on mails or messages but in real life ?? . One of the Catch-22's in relationships is Emotions : May be seem to be a run-of-the-mill precepts but the real life itself corroborates the Element of Truth and we smug beings have nothing but to accept when it stares into our eyes. Then rolls out an avalanche of thoughts forcing us to ask just one question "Why does it happen to me alone ?" and the enumeration of "ME's" !!! I dare not waste my time revising Maths again. Many a times we cross roads with people whom we think should be with us through thick and thin : Craving is every Humane Human's Birth right !! But we end up being alone. Socialization,my gut-feel says was one nice facade created. Weeks pass by,Days pass by and so let people pass by. Why worth all this skullduggery with oneself ?? . Being practical in a radical way can be one way to be better and save ourselves from that Grey Matter Pressure lest be branded as an "Ever Brimming Emotional Sink" .

Mistake

Today was when I realised that I was very bad and unstrategic in doing some things. "There is no wrong way to do the right things" is a mediocre lore. In corporate, there is, there always is.I had slogged to do one task and it was just sidelined for some other non automated task.But still, I appreciate the smartness of the worker coz that alone makes one apart. I really cursed myself for that.Not, that out of jealousy I wrote this,but out of shame and realisation. It was just one more lesson for me.Of the countless one I learnt after getting into this stream.College approach never works.Getting the work done is important. Thatz it. Way to go and the gems of principles,tips,tricks to pick !!!! but ....the Prick on my way is "Where am I heading for ?? "